Trials in my absence..

Hi, there, guys.. remember me? I'm that girl you've been following, but haven't seen any posts in.. well, just to be brutally honest, FOREVER! Yes, that's me.

I have been absent from the bloggy world for some time now. I will not try to make excuses, but I will say there has been a lot going on in my life these past fews days ..weeks .. months.

On April 1st, 2011, my mother was diagnosed with cancer. She had a seizure on the way to work and was rushed to the ER where they found something they did not like on her brain. She was sent to a more technologically advanced hospital where they, indeed, confirmed she had brain tumors. After testing, and a week of hospitalization, she was told it more than likely originated in her lungs, spread to her brain, ribs, and vertebrae.

She was instantly started on radiation.

After getting her treatment that Friday afternoon, she was released to go home. Since that ride home, she has undergone radiation, chemo, a trip to the wig store, IV antibiotics for MRSA via home health, an echo of her heart, and waaay too many pills to cope with for everything from seizures to stomach troubles.

From the initial phone call I received at work that April Fool's Day, to this very second as I am sitting at my desk pecking away at the keyboard trying to fight back tears at the thought of it all, I have watched my never-sick-worry-about-others-first mother crumble into a sick, weak but still independent woman of God clinging to the Lord with all her might.

The doctors say 6 months tops, my mother says 15 more years.

Others whisper about her weight gain from meds or her hairloss and new wig, my mother says but I'm still alive.

Though everyone has come to her side thinking she is too helpless, my mother says if God allows me to be here I will take care of myself.

Looking back, I could never put into words the things I have experienced these past few weeks, but just know that I have gone through alot. I can't promise I will be more reliable and dedicated to this blog, because there are more important things in my life right now.

Just know, as you look at your Reader and think "who is this girl? she hasn't posted in weeks..." that this girl would gladly accept any prayers for strength, patience, wisdom.. anything you can throw her way...